Thoughts on My Journey
I have been through a lot. I have had over 10 surgical procedures, three of them putting me in the hospital, one for over four mouths. I had to relearn how to walk. I have had nearly 150 doctor visits. I have had more than seven CT scans, three PET scans, four MRI scans. I have had ultra-sound scans, many blood test, and other test. I almost died, and was sedated heavily for over two months. I lost over forty pounds. I have a permanent colostomy, my rear no longer works and now it just slowly leaks fluid all the time.
So how do I feel about all that?
Well, I never felt that I was being punished or I was being picked upon. I always felt it was just what happens in this world. When I first noticed the problems I was having I knew it was serious, I was not really fearful, I was just wondering where this was going to go. I was never alone in this journey, I always knew God would heal me in one a few ways. He could do it instantly, or with the help of doctors, or He could take me home, then I would be really healed. Through all of this my faith in God has grown, He is closer to me and I to Him than any time in my life. I have been told that some are amazed at what I have gone through. I have always just taken it a day at a time, I just do what the doctors agree that I need to do and go on. That is the only way I could do it. If I was told two years ago what I would go through, I think I would have said no, but a day at a time, a surgery, a test, I can, and could do that.
I am extremely grateful to be cancer free. I have been in pain or discomfort most of the time, I am now mostly pain free, and I have learned to deal with the rest. I feel good most of the time, and I am grateful for the comfort God and family and friends have given me. I am back to my normal weight and off of medication, the doctors are happy with where I am.
So how do I feel about all that?
Well, I never felt that I was being punished or I was being picked upon. I always felt it was just what happens in this world. When I first noticed the problems I was having I knew it was serious, I was not really fearful, I was just wondering where this was going to go. I was never alone in this journey, I always knew God would heal me in one a few ways. He could do it instantly, or with the help of doctors, or He could take me home, then I would be really healed. Through all of this my faith in God has grown, He is closer to me and I to Him than any time in my life. I have been told that some are amazed at what I have gone through. I have always just taken it a day at a time, I just do what the doctors agree that I need to do and go on. That is the only way I could do it. If I was told two years ago what I would go through, I think I would have said no, but a day at a time, a surgery, a test, I can, and could do that.
I am extremely grateful to be cancer free. I have been in pain or discomfort most of the time, I am now mostly pain free, and I have learned to deal with the rest. I feel good most of the time, and I am grateful for the comfort God and family and friends have given me. I am back to my normal weight and off of medication, the doctors are happy with where I am.